How to save a life..??

Ehm again, here they are my complaints..or *coughs* I don't know how to define them the best way. Anyhow, here I am, again, still in this place..same place, same city, same university, same routinary and boring life. Both stuck in space and time. Something has slightly changed in such a tidy mess, actually. But I really can't figure out why I keep on feeling the way I do. I feel as if everything is crumbling off my feet and I can grab nothing to keep the pieces together. I see friends achieve what I've been longing for ages..I see people get the best input by getting involved in things the least they can..I see people not being happy with their life when they have all that one can ask for..I see relatives fight as if they neither were linked to each others..I see people complaining about their strong health..then I take a look around and see me myself..here, strenuously struggling against something stronger than me and independent from me..being put apart by facts of life..becoming aware of the fact that I will never ever be the exact being I would have liked to be and that I will never ever do what I would have liked to do..trying to trust people (but receiving nothing more than disappointment).. I guess there's only one thing which (or who?!) makes me stop thinking about all that and lets me feel a little bit freer and capable. Anyway, there she goes again, back once more to her silly counterproductive behaviour.. there she goes again relying way too much on people, as if she couldn't live without them..right now, one in particular, actually.
So, I don't know how to conclude this sort of an outburst by answering to the simple question in the title..will there be a fitting answer or not?!